SO, this is my second shot at blogging. Everyone in the world has one and I worry that I will be another ripple in a rather large pond. I have realized, however, that I need a release. I need a way to get these continuous thoughts out of my head. Maybe that's why blogging is so popular...
Last night I was talking with my girlfriend, Andraea. We were wrapped up in an interesting conversation about how I have immersed myself so deeply with noise that I am addicted to it. Anyone else know what I'm talking about? I always have to have something playing in the background. Music, sermons, sports radio, commercial ads, etc. Sometimes, I listen intently. Sometimes, it's just there because I have taught myself to need it.
The truth is, when I try to get to a place where all is quiet, I get restless. I feel uncomfortable and alone and it's really, really hard to concentrate. I've got to find my way out of this.
I have found that words from a sentence in the middle of conversation will bring up a song. Everyday, ordinary sounds will produce a beat in my head that I heard while I was listening to iTunes in my office. This is cute at times, but I have begun to see a disturbing trend. I am becoming shallow.
Great thinkers need large amounts of time to stew, to brood quietly, to marinate. I am not saying that I am a deep thinker by any means, but I want to be. I grab what I consider to be a deep thought, get excited, and turn on a song. The thought flies away.
I have to get back to a place where silence is part of my day - a large part of my day. I have to think. I want to improve. I want to be deeper. I believe silence is a medium which can help me achieve these things.
